Iridocyclities

I woke from a deep slumber and this realization showered on me.
It's still dark outside like it was when Krishna was born.
Amid all the ruthlessness of King Kans, he managed to take birth and survive. It is a teaching of my Guru who made me see the symbolism behind this story. We should celebrate every single thought of awareness that has the potential to destroy all negative thoughts which make our lives a living hell. King Kans is nothing else but very powerful and dominating thought process we carry. We see everything against these rigid ego as our enemies and create a hell only to save that which is not even pleasant in itself. But when a tiny thought as divine as Krishna takes birth in us, we can be assured of an eventual victory that we'll get from this suffering. Suffering of mind as they say.

Why I want to emphasize on this significant story is not just because yesterday was Krishna Janamasthami but by His grace yet another year I experienced a transformation on this day. I got discharge from hospital. I was there for 6 days, taking treatment for my kind of ambiguous eye problem that panicked me so bad. I felt I was loosing my eyesight and as they say, your body talks to you. You need to learn to communicate with your body and it will tell you everything that it need to heal itself. I believe this is such a grace that we have born with this sophisticated system which helps us to live wonderfully. If only we could master the art of living 😃 

Anyway, initially it was Iridocyclitis ! Yes. For those who don't know me pretty well, it is indeed funny because I do make a lot of spelling mistakes every now and then. I am really bad with even some regular words in day to day life. And here I have a managed to developed a rare symptom of disease on a spell Bee joke 😄
So, I was talking treatment for this condition and waiting for my super perfectionist German doctors to finally come up with a through diagnosis. They were so determined to go to the depth of the matters. That it was almost uncomfortable for an impatient Indian patient like me 😉 But I really admire this quality of Germans and more than just learning the language I want to pick up this sincere character of Germans. I managed to develop patience to start with 😉 Waiting is indeed an attitude and I was determined to have my best. So I was praying, meditating and trying to keep myself in high spirits. Off course the love and concern of my family, friends and most importantly my husband was keeping me supported. So I became even more receptive to this experience I was going through and to my surprise I did met someone very interesting during my stay in this hospital room. She was an old lady from Romania. Just like me, she had to suddenly get admitted in the hospital after her check up. So even she was little sad and worried. Also because she had to undergo an operation for her Cataract surgery. But soon we started to talk in our equally bad German and felt a sense of connection in no time. How I love to connect with people! She was telling me her life story of how she single handedly raised five kids in Romania in such challenging condition of poverty and torture from her chauvinistic husband. Her only solace being the Church and faith. What was more interesting is that during this time of struggle, she was given a leaf of some sort by a Priest and asked her to put it under her pillow before she sleeps. Yea, she was that sort of a believer and I believe in believers 😆 So interestingly, she saw a dream for almost 11 years. She saw a man in her dreams for so long that she started recognizing him and one day when was in Germany to meet her Romanian friends, she saw this man on a street and said," I know this man. He'll be my husband!" But her friend's reaction to this was not very pleasant as they knew this man and they were sure that he is not at all a marriage material. According to them, he was a very serious kind of man who knew no fun and had no family. But she was so sure, she told them that she'll marry him soon and she went back to Romania. Her children were grown under the shelter of church and her hardships into educated and well behaved grown ups. Her life took that turning point when out if nowhere thus man started communicating with her by sending her greeting cards from Germany. And just like a fairy tale, transcending the limitations of borders and languages, he asked her to get married to him. Can you believe that? I still can't believe it's a true story but i've met many ordinary people with extraordinary lives before to believe in this one. I was in tears as usual. I have been shedding these tears of joy pretty frequently these days. This story needs to be told for the sheer sharing of this joy.
This woman sold her shop and home in Romania and came to Germany to marry this guy she saw in her dreams for 11 years!
And they are happily married for 14 years now. This is what transformation looks like. It is possible! A brand new life is possible in this life time itself. All you need is a faithful heart. We are manifesting our beliefs every now and then. If only we learn to believe in a better world.
I had a great time with this old lady and we became very close friends in just four days. Cosmic connection had done it's job yet again and it was already time to say goodbye.

My results were out finally. After lots of blood test, they found out that I can have genetic Glaucoma. So they wanted to do some more tests on me. Till this point I had no idea what this means. After they confirmed that I am borderline, I discovered that it is that disease in which a person becomes blind. Wow! I could get blind one day. This revelation has opened my eyes in true sense. I can't tell you how much happy and grateful I am feeling Everytime I open my eyes. I can see now.
I don't know about the future but now,
I was continuously doing the japa of "hare Krishna hare Rama" and now all I remember are the words by this wonderful lady, " Danke mine Gott!"
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